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The Official November Catch Up

Well once again it’s come to my attention that time is going by far too quickly. Titus and I have been sick for the past two weeks and I swear it was the plague; as soon as we got over one part of it another hit and the poor little guy got it way worse than I did. He finally started feeling better a couple days ago and I didn’t realize that it has been so long since he smiled until he beamed up at me while I was feeding him. It was so nice to see him smile again and I have noticed a huge difference over the past few days; I finally have my little boy back!

We have settled quite nicely into our new little home. Sorry I haven’t posted pictures yet but I actually don’t have the internet set up yet so i haven’t been able to post whenever I want. Our apartment is just perfect for us, just enough space and a spot to put everything. It’s always organized and at least mostly clean, I love it. Mark and mom came over last weekend and helped me hang up all my pictures so it’s much more homey now. Titus loves rolling around in the family room and is usually pretty good at entertaining himself while I cook or clean or do laundry. I finally plugged my tv in about a week ago and have been catching up on the X Factor and Glee, other than that though the tv stays off and we just listen to music while we hang out together.

Work has been absolutely insane but very rewarding at the same time. I have never had a more stressful job but I have never had a job that I enjoy so much either. I was promoted for the second time about a month ago, the new position intimidated me at first but I swear we were meant to be together. It pushes me and I feel like I’m really excelling at it which is always a nice feeling. Titus started a new daycare in Nampa about the same time as my promotion and he absolutely loves it. I know he misses seeing his daddy and Gran Dawny every day but this new daycare is a great fit for him. He’s always loving on Miss Kim when I show up and even has a couple little buddies. Whenever I walk in door in the morning this adorable little 6 year old hops up and says, ‘Titus is here!!!’ It’s the cutest thing.

Titus is growing and changing everyday. He still isn’t crawling but I think having the flu for so long kind of set him back; no one wants to be on their tummy when they’re nauseated. But now that we are past that he is enjoying his tummy time again and keeps pushing off the floor like he’s going to take off. Any day now! I can’t believe that in two short months I will have a one year old, it seems like just yesterday I was sitting in the NICU watching my sweet boy sleep and waiting anxiously to take him home. Now here he is, jabbering and cooing and rolling around on the floor, such a happy and healthy little boy.

Welp, there’s the official November catch up! Hopefully everyone is enjoying the change of weather and is looking forward to a wonderful Thanksgiving. Happy Holidays!!



There Is Always Room For Change

I would say that there are four people in this world that actually understand me. I can completely be myself around them and I know that they have never and will never judge me or the decisions I make. They know my quite side and my crazy side and they love me for both. These people understand me because I have aloud them into every single aspect of my life. They know my darkest secrets and have seen every scar when it was a fresh and vonerable wound. They have held me at my lowest points and have encouraged me to reach my highest goals. They know me. They love me. And all four of them are still around. For those of you that think I’ve jumped off the deep end or that I’m making troubling decisions please stop wasting your time worrying about me. I mean that in the senserist way possible and am not trying to be rude, but all this negative energy is just a waste. It’s just drama. If I had truly lost it you had better believe the above mentioned would have said something to me by now. I’m morphing back into someone that has been lost under a ruse for the past three years. She’s been dying to see sunlight again and has patiently waited for the perfect moment to reappear. But she’s rusty and she’s been silenced for so long that she’s not exactly sure who she is or what she wants anymore…

There will be growing pains, there always are. There will be more low points and, yes, more mistakes but the result is so worth it. Joy. Happiness. Love. A strong woman with a beautiful son and a best friend that was meant to be just that.

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Just wanted to let everyone I deleted my Facebook. Its not anything personal just done with the drama. I'll stil update my blog so stay tuned!!

One of Those Nights

It feels like a perfect night to dress up like hipsters and make fun of our exes. It feels like a perfect night for breakfast at midnight, to fall in love with strangers.

We're happy, free, confused, and lonely at the same time. It's miserable and magical , tonight's the night we forget about the deadlines, its time.

I don't know about you but I'm feeling 22. Everything will be alright if you keep me next to you. You don't know about me but I'll bet you want to.

Everything will be alright if we just keep dancing like we're 22.

-Taylor Swift