Flying South for the Winter

I can now officially announce that I was offered a promotion a couple weeks ago at work and I gladly accepted it! My boss was working out some of the final details and it was kept pretty quiet but the last few things to attend to have been settled and I will be starting at our sister office in South Nampa in just a few short weeks. This will mean a great little pay bump and switching from part to full time. The learning curve will be a little intense and I will miss my dear friends at North office like crazy but I am ready and excited for this new opportunity and can't wait to see what's in store for me at South!

Our Last July Saturday Night

If you were looking for me this weekend, nine times out of ten you would have found me at the pool! It was a beautiful weekend and I took full advantage of that sunshine. Titus had a great time splashing around in the pool and hanging out in his stroller, sucking on his frozen teething toys while mommy got her tan on. Saturday
was reserved just for us ladies though; Courtney, Adele and I laid out for a little over an hour, chatting and listening to country music as we bronzed up (and burned a little too!)

After wrapping up at the pool, Uncle Bug came over to babysit so Eric could go see the new Batman while I went out to Caldwell for the Jo Dee Messina concert. I was pretty impressed with the Canyon County fair; it was bigger and much busier than I expected and
Jo Dee was excellent, of course. I even ran into some high school buddies at the concert; it was fun catching up and talking about the 'good old days' in Hindy's class. After the concert we walked around the fair and played some games. I got a free rose from the nicest little carnie; I was pretty excited about it if you couldn't tell. :)

Levi and Chelsea waited in line for FOREVER to go on a ride and then everyone headed back to Adele and Ben's for the night. I don't know if I'm getting old or if it was all the time in the sun, but I was beat so I headed back to Boise. I got home to find Bug watching Billy Madison which I've never seen or even heard of. Garrett was shocked and offered to start it over but unfortunately the humor was wasted on me as I was very sleepy and kept having to ask questions about the plot, or lack thereof. It was nice hanging out with him for a while though and just laughing together. It was definitely the perfect way to end our last July Saturday night, at least until next year. #springsteen

My 'Little' Brother

Yesterday I was able to attend a long boarding competition that my brother and a couple of his friends were in. Out of almost 50 people, over half of which were college aged kids, Garrett came in 8th place! I was so proud of him and so excited that I was there and got to be a part of it. After I got home I looked at my phone to find a text from him basically saying thanks for coming and I love you. I don't really know what it was about that text, or maybe it was something I saw that night, but Garrett is really growing up. He has somehow turned into a young gentleman over the past year; I'm not exactly sure where or when it happened but it certainly did. He opens doors for Nichole, mom, and me, he loves spending time with and taking care of Titus, he is incredibly helpful and he is becoming more and more mature every day. I can't believe 15 years has gone by since that day at Raedeans's in that corner booth; mom and dad telling Cole and me that we were going to get a little brother soon..

I'm so blessed to be a part of your life, Garrett! I love you and I'm so proud of everything you do; you are becoming an incredible young man and I can't wait to see all that you will accomplish.

Somebody That I Used To Know

Have you ever had a song come on as your driving that reminded you of an old friend? At first you're like, awe, so-and-so, I remember them. But by the end of the song your heart is racing, you're singing at the top of your lungs, and you're gripping onto the steering wheel so tight your knuckles are turning white. And you're so surprised at 

how incredibly pissed off you still are that all you can do is start the song over and sing it again, allowing all the memories to run through your head as you wonder why in the world that person isn't a part of your day to day life anymore...guess that I don't need that though, now you're just somebody that I used to know..

A Step in the Right Direction

I"m not really sure what to say anymore. I feel like screaming in a crowed room. I'm not trying to lie to anyone or be deceitful. If you have questions; I'll give answers but out of respect for those closest to me and out of respect for myself I'm not willing to 'air out all my dirty laundry' in a blog or on Facebook. That said, writing is how I process and my blog is for me, not for anyone else. If you want to read about the parts of my life that I'm willing to share; stay tuned. If you are going to judge me, try to change me, or hold what I say and how I feel against me, kindly stop reading my blog and stick to reading my FB updates and 'liking' my pictures. I enjoy writing and I enjoy letting the people I care about see bits and pieces of me that I usually wouldn't share in person or over the phone. I know that my blog has had a lot of recipes and fun stories about Titus and about me and about day to day life, and I will continue to post about those things but the past couple months every time I sit down to write something I feel like I'm sugar coating everything. I sit at the computer thinking, for hours sometimes, trying to come up with things to say that everyone is going to want to hear about and omitting the stories that might offend. And that's no one's fault but my own. From now on I'm just going to 'do me', whatever that expression is supposed to mean. No more sugar coating and no more thinking about what everyone else is going to think of me...

Somehow even as I'm writing all of this I'm contemplating if I will actually click that little orange box that says 'Publish' when I'm done. If I do, well that's probably why you're reading this. If I don't it will be saved in my unpublished posts and I will see it every time I create a new post filled with things that everyone will approve of. So for now I will pretend for a bit longer; I will click save and I will read this and re read this until I'm finally brave enough to post it; until I am finally willing to stop confining myself.